Sunday, February 7, 2010

C is for (even more) Cookies


We made cookies today. During B we found a delicious recipe for Butterscotch Drop Cookies so we used C as an excuse to make a second batch.

This recipe is from Sweet Maria's Cookie Jar

Butterscotch Drops

1 stick butter
1 C brown sugar
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla
1 1/2 C flour
2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
1 1/2 C butterscotch chips

Preheat oven to 350 degrees

Cream butter and sugar until light. Beat in eggs and vanilla. Mix until well blended.

Add dry ingredients. Mix well. Stir in chips.

Drop teaspoons of dough onto parchment lined baking sheet. Space 2 inches apart.

Bake 10-12 min.

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Physically I am much stronger today and I am trying to spread out my meds to six hours from four. By six I'm suffering horribly but I can do it.

Emotionally, the day has been taxing. I realized I was 31 when this all began. My boys were 6, 5 and 4 and we were still considering adopting a sibling group to add to our family. My diagnosis put everything on hold. Now I have a teenager, we are too far along the family path to want to add more and I'm closer to 40 than 20. I'm sad for barely making it through these last few years, for the kids we didn't bring home and the years we missed big pieces of.

But, I'm not one to cry over spilled milk. We have the family I believe God intended for us and a close-knit strong one at that. It's just weird to pop out the other side of this trial so much older and having missed so much.

Looking forward to making up for lost time :-)

P.S. It's not too late to join A-Z, we still have new members jumping in every day!

5 comments:

Tiff said...

I love butterscotch cookies ONLY when they're fresh, YUM!

I'm sorry that reality hit you this morning :( You're a wonderful mother and a beautiful person, I'm certain that your 40 will be better than your 25!

sarahmartina said...

I'm so gonna try this! :) Thanks for sharing this, and your story. You're such an incredibly strong (and beautiful) woman... :) Hugs!

~kelly marie~ said...

Thank you for sharing your story. You are so strong. I am someone who has also lost time due to illness. Thanks for inspiring me to look forward to making up for that lost time.

grrlpup said...

Maybe there wasn't room for the emotional stuff in the thick of the battle, and now that you're emerging on the other side, it's catching up. Hard to deal with the loss of years slipped away and might-have-beens-- I think most people have a version of that, but not as intense as yours.

I hope that all the good things flowing toward you and waiting in the future will flood out the regrets and missed chances.

Rach said...

The Cookies look delicious. Like you we were planning more children when I was about 28 and Pete was 30 then he got sick and got diagnosed so it all got put on hold never to be taken off again. Saying that I am happy with my lot and wouldn't change a thing as we are a lot stronger for it. x
Don't suffer needlessly if you don't need too. Take care. x